I was exhausted after the court on Friday and all the anticipation that I went through to have it finally behind my back. I am praising the Lord that once again He showed me that whatever He promissed He will Deliver! On Friday I had a huge victory of both of my and my husbands` cases dropped, and from now on it`s all about custody battle.
As I was reading my bible and devotionals that day, God showed me this scripture in Luke, and it helped me to re-focus my attention back to the interceding battle for my husband`s salvation and rebuilding of my family.
Luke 9:61-62 (NIV)
61 Still another said, “I will follow you, Lord; but first let me go back and say goodbye to my family.”
62 Jesus replied, “No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God.”
Last week I received a letter from my domestic attorney with the copy of the answers filed by my husband`s attorney to my request for costody and legal separation. When I saw my husband denying his pornography addiction, strip clubs, his violent outbreaks, and other things he`s done to me, along with the reiterated request for financial support from me, it only hurt me all over again. It`s a searing pain that`s impossible to get rid of if I only concentrated on the physical circumstances. That`s why Jesus was so adamant about leaving the circumstances and moving on to serve Him. As soon as I give even a slight hint of remembrance of everything that I went through in the past year and a half and particularly in the past four months, it brings unbearable pain and prevents me from concentrating on what God`s will is for my life and for my family. That`s why God showed me this scripture again that if I am committed to "put my hand to the plow", I can only look forward to what He will do through me and through my committment. I don`t know anyone who have failed when relying on God. It is our promise from Him that when we are that committed to "plow" for Him, He would supply us with enough strength and endurance to get through whatever circumstances that come our way.
Jesus said it very harshly and plainly that whoever wants to plow for God, cannot look back and dwell in the past because it caps off the possibility to think straight. If I only dwelled on the things of the past when I found out about all the betrayal, and lies from my husband, or even from four months ago when my husband took away my keys and was blocking my entrances out of the house preventing me to leave with my daughter, I could only dwell in bitterness and anger and hatered towards him. Instead, I committed that I will continue to pray for him and see him through God`s eyes, as a lost sheep who is blinded and binded by the sin preventing him to see the facts straight, and I chose to continue to plow and to be fit because I know that it`s the only attitude that produces results. It`s a tough going, and it`s a battle taking captive my thoughts to make it obedient to Christ (2 Corinthians 10:5) on a daily basis not to give up that fort to get angry or emotional. I don`t always win, but I get better at it.
James said that:
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do. (James 1:2-8 NIV)
This is the struggle that I face: not to be a double-minded person or to doubt that whatever God started, He would finish because He is faithful. I have endless amounts of trials, and in all of them God has delivered me out of the hand of my enemies so long, as I continued to rely on Him and stay obedient.
I had to pledge myself all over again that what I do is not for myself, but for God, and He will support me to persevere to the end to win my husband back to the Lord and to rebuild my fmaily on His foundation from scratch.
I urge you today that if you think you have problems and you are having hard time moving forward, please consider what Jesus said: that we are unfil to serve God`s purpose if we dwell on the past because it`s impossible to do both: keeping hands on the plow and look back at the same time. The result would be either unplowed field or the rows would be crooked and the subsequent stages prior to harvest delayed.
Plowing is preparing soil for sawing seeds to bring forth harvest. Plowing is the hardest and tedious of the agricultural jobs, and without technology it requred a lot of physical strength and stamina. I am in the plowing stage right now where I am removing all the stones, pebbles, hardened soil, and all sorts of garbage preparing for God to come in and to work with my husband`s heart in order for Him to sow His seeds to bring forth hearvest. I don`t know yet how much longer it would take, but I know that whatever God started, He will finish. I urge you to look forward if you committed to plow for Him, so God could use you and find you fit for His purpose.
As I was reading my bible and devotionals that day, God showed me this scripture in Luke, and it helped me to re-focus my attention back to the interceding battle for my husband`s salvation and rebuilding of my family.
Luke 9:61-62 (NIV)
61 Still another said, “I will follow you, Lord; but first let me go back and say goodbye to my family.”
62 Jesus replied, “No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God.”
Last week I received a letter from my domestic attorney with the copy of the answers filed by my husband`s attorney to my request for costody and legal separation. When I saw my husband denying his pornography addiction, strip clubs, his violent outbreaks, and other things he`s done to me, along with the reiterated request for financial support from me, it only hurt me all over again. It`s a searing pain that`s impossible to get rid of if I only concentrated on the physical circumstances. That`s why Jesus was so adamant about leaving the circumstances and moving on to serve Him. As soon as I give even a slight hint of remembrance of everything that I went through in the past year and a half and particularly in the past four months, it brings unbearable pain and prevents me from concentrating on what God`s will is for my life and for my family. That`s why God showed me this scripture again that if I am committed to "put my hand to the plow", I can only look forward to what He will do through me and through my committment. I don`t know anyone who have failed when relying on God. It is our promise from Him that when we are that committed to "plow" for Him, He would supply us with enough strength and endurance to get through whatever circumstances that come our way.
Jesus said it very harshly and plainly that whoever wants to plow for God, cannot look back and dwell in the past because it caps off the possibility to think straight. If I only dwelled on the things of the past when I found out about all the betrayal, and lies from my husband, or even from four months ago when my husband took away my keys and was blocking my entrances out of the house preventing me to leave with my daughter, I could only dwell in bitterness and anger and hatered towards him. Instead, I committed that I will continue to pray for him and see him through God`s eyes, as a lost sheep who is blinded and binded by the sin preventing him to see the facts straight, and I chose to continue to plow and to be fit because I know that it`s the only attitude that produces results. It`s a tough going, and it`s a battle taking captive my thoughts to make it obedient to Christ (2 Corinthians 10:5) on a daily basis not to give up that fort to get angry or emotional. I don`t always win, but I get better at it.
James said that:
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do. (James 1:2-8 NIV)
This is the struggle that I face: not to be a double-minded person or to doubt that whatever God started, He would finish because He is faithful. I have endless amounts of trials, and in all of them God has delivered me out of the hand of my enemies so long, as I continued to rely on Him and stay obedient.
I had to pledge myself all over again that what I do is not for myself, but for God, and He will support me to persevere to the end to win my husband back to the Lord and to rebuild my fmaily on His foundation from scratch.
I urge you today that if you think you have problems and you are having hard time moving forward, please consider what Jesus said: that we are unfil to serve God`s purpose if we dwell on the past because it`s impossible to do both: keeping hands on the plow and look back at the same time. The result would be either unplowed field or the rows would be crooked and the subsequent stages prior to harvest delayed.
Plowing is preparing soil for sawing seeds to bring forth harvest. Plowing is the hardest and tedious of the agricultural jobs, and without technology it requred a lot of physical strength and stamina. I am in the plowing stage right now where I am removing all the stones, pebbles, hardened soil, and all sorts of garbage preparing for God to come in and to work with my husband`s heart in order for Him to sow His seeds to bring forth hearvest. I don`t know yet how much longer it would take, but I know that whatever God started, He will finish. I urge you to look forward if you committed to plow for Him, so God could use you and find you fit for His purpose.
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